Sitting the fence

It's just another day doot doot dit doo doo the house is messy kids are mad. Need to grocery shop real bad..laundry piled up on the floor and the baskets are over flowing...Yep it's just another day.

I am having a huge issue with public school systems... AGAIN.  Seems like the more they try to change and create better systems.. they end up with programmed little robots..Yes I said Robots, the input goes in, and they are expected to put out on the test exactly what they were told... NO room for independent thinking.

Now yes my children currently are enrolled in the public system. However every day I strive to un-school what BS they learned, trying to keep in the basics of math and sciences.  I did try homeschooling my children for most of last fall, from about October till Feb this year when we landed here in our new state..

I basically sent them back for 2 main reasons, among others, one being that my children were not respecting me as a teacher, and 2 I was losing my temper more than I like...
I have been doing more research and realized that I was probably over thinking the "home=school" ideas. I really think I was trying to make it to much like School, and I found my self irritated when they did not get the assigned work finished.
Now do not get me wrong, I am teaching my children everyday.. In fact I noticed that on the average day or weekend I was actually "teaching" my kids tons of things! How to cook, properly clean. how to bargain shop, use less, be green, create new meals.. We did crafts used our imaginations, went to the library..a small air plane museum, tons of online videos of how its made, and even dirty jobs doing more research online..
we star gaze compare how one breed of cow or animal is better or worse for different jobs.. and there is so much more I want to teach them! Not to mention our beliefs and moral standards, choosing the right staying chaste, and esp having integrity ( look up the word, not many people have it)

I feel Like I am teaching them more than their teachers do, my issue is in the world the way it is made.. IF I do not keep my kids in some form of mind numbing schools, how will they get into a real job?? so many work places demand "college degrees" for jobs any numb nut off the street could learn how to do!

It feels like basically I am stuck in limbo... Not only am I concerned with that issue, I am concerned with keeping my own sanity IF my children come home school again..Yet the "show" put on by my sons school all about famous people and facts of this state pissed me off, because that is thousands of OUR dollars spent teaching 350 4th graders useless BS they will never use again..

So basically as much as I hate to admit it, I am a fence sitter... I know this will irritate many of you, and several of you will try to explain your point of view for pros or cons of whatever way you choose to educate your children...I do appreciate positive grown up replies!  So for now it is time to hit the shower, get ready for dinner, my daughter has a friend over and surprisingly they are all up stairs doing who knows what.. even the boys pretty sure it is make overs..
Besides I need to pray some more about sitting the fence, it is not very comfortable...